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Wednesday, July 10, 2013

July 10, 2013 2:30 am

This time 14 years ago I had no idea how

in a few hours my life was going to change. How could I…this was all new to me.

Motherhood

was something I had longed for and dreamed about but didn’t know. I had spent the last few months nesting and fluffing every cute pink thing I could get my hands on but still didn’t know what motherhood was about to do to me!

I awoke at 7:30 to my water breaking. It was so exciting to call your dad (he was working with Nana and Papa early that morning) and tell him

“it was time”.

The time we had been anticipating for months was finally here. Today was our day to become a family of three. You were 3 1/2 weeks early at this point but I had no fear, only peace. On the ride to the hospital we took our time, stopping to get me something to eat because after all you were our first and everyone tells you how long it takes. About 10 minutes from the hospital I had my first contraction. I may have asked your dad to speed up at that point! When we got to the hospital we had to stand at the check in desk for what seemed like forever, giving them all he same information I had filled out and mailed to them a month earlier…go figure. After that they bring a wheelchair and wheel me to a room. By this point the contractions are regular and strong. A nurse comes in and asks me a million and one questions, including how much I weigh. Can I stop right here and just say that NO ONE should ever ask a woman how much she weighs much less when she has spent the last 9 months gaining weight, is swollen and in pain from contractions, there I feel better now! We answered all her questions only breaking for contractions. I asked her if she was going to check me and she politely smiles and says, NO dear, this is your first baby and you have a long time ahead of you, I will be back later to check you. Well, that was not the answer I was looking for because I knew it was close to time! I told her that she could laugh at me later but please check me now! She did and to her great surprise I was dilated to a 7, in less than an hour (from when the first contraction came) I had dilated to a 7. She quickly started making calls to the doctors and prepping the room. I do not remember what time I it was when I started to push, which I had no idea how to do and spent most of the time doing it wrong, but I know you arrived perfect and healthy at 1:35 pm.

From the first look at you, I knew my world had changed forever. I now knew I would never do anything in life the same. Suddenly I knew what it meant to love unconditionally. You had not looked me or touched me and had nothing to offer but needs but I was willing to die for you! I did not know I was capable of that type of love! Suddenly, you had welcomed me into

Motherhood

and changed me forever.

I am beyond thankful to have you and one day, in the not to distant future, I can’t wait for you to have your first and to finally fully understand what a treasured gift you are!